Interesting developments...take 2...

I promised an update with the interesting developments in my life. Right now, it seems quiet enough at work that I may be able to deliver on that promise.
~*eyes the queue*~ .....then again, maybe not. 8 a.m. and there's a queue...~*sigh*~

Okay, I'm back, you lucky people. Anyway......

Interesting development number one - Fates and I have decided to work toward a long term relationship. I've never actually decided to do that before. It had always just....gone that way, or something. It feels good to make it an actual decision. Things aren't changing right away. I mean, there's no exchanging of keys or anything. No rings to be considered, much less purchased. We aren't rushing into things...which also feels good. Its just a decision that's been made...a goal to attain, if you will. I think I like the idea of not living together for awhile. I mean, I think I'd like that even if both of us were in a position to move in together. Neither of us are, really...so, its a moot point at any rate. Besides, with the kids....that should be a definite decision, not just something that happens.

Interesting development number two - Last party at the LH, jackass showed up. Fortunately, I'd been warned before hand that someone was bringing him. That would not have been a good surprise in the least. I'm quite proud of the way I handled it though, and I did find it rather amusing.
He lingered around me half the night - no doubt hoping to hear some snippet on my life and the kids. Bastard's not gonna get off that easy. If he wants to know about the kids, he can call and ask! He was 'showing off' with the girl he was with that night. I was only aware enough to know what he was doing. I gave him no drama. I didn't even really speak with him. Every time he came into a room and lingered, I stopped talking about the kids. I didn't react to his 'act'. I'm quite proud of myself.
Of course, I did talk some...did verbalize my observations. I did get amused at his games. And I do realize that it isn't all about me. He had other reasons for attending, I'm sure...but getting a jab in at me was likely in there too. He wanted attention, and didn't get it.
I felt like I really was part of a family with the group. Usually, I feel like a bystander....someone they know and greet, but don't really 'include'. But, everyone that night proved different. They were good about checking on me, making sure I was doing alright. I had a couple people warn me as I walked in the door...and one who called me a bit before hand to let me know. It felt good.

There's a party tonight at the LH, but I don't think I'm going to go. Partly, I don't have the money to spare. The cover charge has been offered to me, so I could get in without a problem. Even so, they know me well enough that I should be fine. I just don't want to ask, and I don't want someone else to cover me. I let R do it, but then, she's my best friend...and we always get each other back in some way or another. Its a different sort of relationship than I have with the current offeror. Besides, I'm not sure I want to go. Yes, it would be nice to see everyone again. And, it would be nice to get away for a little bit....but, really, I'm not in the mood for a party. I don't really want to ask mom to watch the kids, because she's been with them a lot this week. She needs a break too, I'm sure. I'd also be curious about whether jackass shows up or not....but I'm not curious enough to want to go. R's not going either, so...no motivation for me to go tonight. Not that she has to go for me to go....but, some nights, it just helps :D
Besides all of that, Fates will be over after work Sunday morning. Motivation for me to stay home. I know he wouldn't want me to stay home just because of him, but I'm not. Bottom line is, I'm just not in a group social mood. Well, maybe a small group at the house or something, but not a big group.